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Rough (but strangely productive) Day

Despite spending the entire day at home (very unusual for us) with a grumpier than usual 2 month old and a defiant and sassy 4 year old I still managed to accomplish a few things today.  Not as much as I was hoping but at least it’s a start.  In between tending to Layla and her constant crying and arguing with Madalyn about her messy room I was able to:

  • Clean out the upstairs hallway closet and label the shelves.  I do love my labeler.  And it really helps me to keep things in their place!
  • Sorted through Madalyn’s clothes and took the too small ones out of her closet.
  • Almost got Madalyn’s room clean.
  • Hang a different shower curtain in the upstairs hallway bathroom.
  • Switch the dining room curtain with the master bedroom curtain. 
  • Washed about 4 loads of clothes including a load of diapers.  Have gotten 3 dried and folded.
  • Cooked supper.
  • Cleaned Annagrace’s room.
  • Changed the sheets in Annagrace’s room and our room.
  • Scrubbed about 1/4 of the kitchen floor (getting ready to go and finish that now).
  • Cleaned our bedroom (though it is not nearly done).
  • Wrapped one present and helped the girls wrap two presents. 

I honestly don’t know how I got all that done today.  Annagrace was a really big help and I wouldn’t have gotten half of that stuff done without her.  Layla was soooooo fussy today.  At one point I just laid her in the crib and let her cry because I was starting to lose my patience.  I hate hearing her cry and I KNOW she doesn’t feel good because of the thrush but I just couldn’t handle it.  Lots of mama tears shed today!

Yucky thrush

My poor baby has thrush. As upset about that as I am I am glad to know what has been causing her to be so incredibly fussy the last few days. I feel awful because I thought her tongue looked white a few days ago and I thought, “Hmmm…that sorts looks like thrush. Nah. It’s probably just leftover milk.”. Today I was holding her in her sling while I was cooking because she just wouldn’t calm down any other way and she yawned really big while we were standing by the window. That’s when I saw her tongue covered in white patches! I looked in it again this evening and it is also on the inside of her cheeks. That explains the increase in spit up, the fussiness while nursing, my sore breasts. All things that I had attributed to other things. I feel so stupid. I think she may have had this for awhile because of the timing of all the symptoms.

Anyway. I called her doctor and she has called in a prescription for her for Nystatin drops and also a script for Nystatin cream that I am to use after nursing. I will have to get it tomorrow since the pharmacy was closed when we went tonight.

I hope she gets feeling better before Christmas! I want my sweet happy baby back!


Today I am grateful for:

  • Good books, including this one that I have almost finished:


  • Finding one of my favorite movies in the $5 DVD section at Wal-mart.

  • Pearl Jam.  Yes, Pearl Jam.  I’ve loved them for so long.  Hopefully I’ll see them live one day. 


  • Blogs by creative people like this one.  And this one.  And especially this one
  • My Aunt Tinker (yes, that is really her name…well, a nickname that stuck) and her homemade fudge.
  • Good days that are had by my 92 year old Granny.  It was nice to visit yesterday and know that she knew who I was (even if she couldn’t remember my name!). 
  • Homeschooling my kids.  I love it.  Most days. 
  • Little girly Christmas dresses worn by Layla and Madalyn tonight.  And “big girl” sweater dresses and black boots (worn by Annagrace!). 
  • My mom’s scheduled knee replacement surgery.  I tell ya, when I see her get up without a walker, pick up Layla and carry her for the first time…I will just CRY.  
  • Payday.  And I’m not talking about the candy bar.  Although they are pretty good too. 
  • Christmas surprises.  And my kids are getting a BIG one this year!  Can’t wait!!!
  • Cloth diapers and the ability to breastfeed my child.  Not that money is the main reason I do it but it is amazing to think that those two things have already saved us roughly $250.  And Layla is not even 2 months old yet!
  •  My parents and their love for their grandchildren.  They never hesitate to say “yes” when I ask them if the girls can spend the night with them! 

  • My new niece or nephew who will be making a debut next summer!!!  Annagrace became the first grandchild in 2002.  In 2004 Taylor joined the bunch when her mommy married my brother.  In 2005 our family was blessed with both Brayden and Madalyn, in 2008 Zachary arrived, in 2009 Layla joined our brood and now next year another little Cutler will join the family! Yippee!  My mom said she never dreamed she would have 7 grandchildren!

So many more things to be grateful for.  This is just the tip of the iceberg!

Hi Ho Hi Ho–It’s Back to Work I Go

Work bag packed with clipboard, hand sanitizer, stethescope, thermometer and BP cuff…CHECK.

Diaper bag packed with bottles, diapers, wipes, pacifiers, burp cloth and clothes…CHECK.

Breastpump bag packed with pumps, a nursing cover (because I may have to pump in the van), ice bags (in the freezer) and storage bottles…CHECK.

A happy positive attitude about returning to work tomorrow…uh…still working on that one.

I can’t believe it has been 7 weeks since I had Layla! I had planned to go back to work at 8 weeks then realized that would be the week of Christmas. So I decided instead to go back this week and work 2 days. Next week I plan to work one day only. The flexibility is one of the benefits of my part-time, as needed position. But still I am sad about leaving my baby girl.

I am grateful for a job though and I know that me working is necessary for us to make ends meet. I am happy to be a part-time stay at home mommy and a part-time nurse. It is the best of both worlds. Life is good!

Born to Die

One thing I LOVE about Pandora and Slacker is the opportunity to be exposed to new songs and new artists I may have otherwise never heard.  Such is the case with this song.  I just had to share it.  The video is just one that someone threw together.  But listen to the song–the lyrics are BEAUTIFUL.

I have been blessed to have 3 beautiful children.  Two of those children have been newborns at Christmas time.  Both times it has caused me to stop and to really ponder what it was like for Jesus to leave Heaven and to become a helpless infant in the arms of unexperienced, young parents.  The song mentions “all of Heaven” wondering why Jesus would do this.  Why He would CHOOSE to do this.  Why He would CHOOSE to be a baby who was born . . . to die.

It’s hard to take it all in at times.  I never thought about what the night He was born was really like before I had children.  Mary suffered through childbirth.  She likely struggled, like most new mothers, with breastfeeding.  There were probably times that she grew weary of hearing Him cry.  Times when she didn’t know how to calm Him.  Times when He had gas pains.  Or when He just wouldn’t go to sleep!

I can imagine as He grew into the terrible twos that she would sometimes think “I know you’re the Son of God and all but can you please stop writing on the furniture?”  Because although Jesus was sinless He was still an innocent child at one time.  A child who got hurt.  Who liked to explore.  Who liked to pull all the dishes out from the cabinets and beat on them with a spoon.

It had to be amazing but also scary being the mother of God’s one and only Son.  Can you imagine how you would feel each time He became sick?  Or each time He fell and skinned His knee?  “Ooops–sorry about that God!”.  Or how about watching Him die on a cross when you know He has chosen to do so.  When you know He is the only one able to save Himself and yet He doesn’t.

I look forward to the day that I can talk with Mary about Jesus’s childhood.  Maybe swap stories with her about carrying (wonder if she had morning sickness?), delivering (how long did she labor?) and raising (was Jesus an “easy’ baby or did He cry a lot?) our precious babies!

Thank you Jesus for being willing to come to earth and become a helpless little infant so that one day you could then die for the sins of man.  Thank you.  Thank you.  Thank you!

Homeschool/Preschool Resources!

I have been surfing the internet a LOT lately looking for good resources for preschool stuff for Madalyn and in my searching I have come across some really good sites for activities not only for Madalyn who is getting ready to start preschool but also for Annagrace.  Here is a list of a few good sites I have come across lately:

1.–FANTASTIC site for finding all sorts of useful information.  Annagrace and I are both disappointed in her current language arts books so I was happy to find a section on this site where you can choose the grade level, then the subject, then the specific lesson you are looking for.  This week she learned about antonyms, synonyms and analogies.  The site had some great printable worksheets!  And best of all it is FREE and does not require registration!

2.  1+1+1=1 and Tot School:  Both sites are run by the same homeschooling mama.  The Tot School site has some great resources on lapbooks and workboxes!  In general, these are just great sites for all sorts neat (and “Montessori-esque”) ideas.

3.  Homeschool Creations has some great preschool and planning printables as well as workbox info.  I used her workbox printables for our workbox station!

4.  File Folder Fun:  We went to homeschool math club yesterday and the mom had a bunch of file folder games she had made for her kids.  I loved them and thought they would be fun for Madalyn.  This site has some great printables if you are like me and a) you don’t want to have to come up with your own ideas and b) you are anal retentive about the lines being straight.  (I decided I could not hand write/draw the games because they would not be neat enough for me!).

5.  Homemade Preschool–Melissa at Homemade Preschool commented on my blog so I checked out her site and it is fantastic!  If you want to use some ready made lesson plans with your preschoolers be sure to check this out!  She also has all the materials/worksheets, etc that you will need right there on her site.  And if you want to write your own lesson plans she has worksheets to help you do that as well.

Still Awake

At 2:30 a.m.  Not because of baby Layla.  Nope.  This is because of choice.  I have been sitting up organizing bills and papers.  I have felt very out of control around here lately and I just HAD to get these things organized.  I don’t like feeling out of control.  I am going on an organizing frenzy.  I think this is back-to-work “nesting”.  I feel like I have to get a bunch of stuff accomplished before going back next week.  Anyway…I have tons of things on my mind so I’ll dump a few of  them here and then go to bed.

  • I DREAD having to call the insurance company tomorrow about our hospital bills.  Our out of pocket maximum is $3000 but somehow I owe the hospital and MD over $4000–something’s not adding up right.
  • I also DREAD calling the hospital to set up a payment plan.  And the doctor’s office.  And the anesthesiologist’s office.  One day Layla will be all paid for….maybe in about 3 years or so.
  • My hubby is sleeping through the Godfather.  I have never seen this movie but from what I hear I don’t think I’m missing anything.
  • I am praying SO HARD for this new job opportunity to work out.  Basically it would require me to be on-call Monday through (hopefully) Thursday from 5pm-8am.  Some nights the nurses are really busy.  Other nights (like the last time I took call) we are not busy at all.  This has the potential to be amazingly awesome for us.  For one, I would be home every. single. day. Aaron would be home in the evenings if I get called out.  I would be off every weekend.  I would never need a babysitter and homeschooling would be much easier if I was home everyday.  Here is the REALLY great part of all of it….this would be a full time, salaried position with benefits!  So whether I work 5 hours a week or 40 hours a week my pay would be the same every week.  Honestly there are more slow weeks than busy weeks.  There are negatives.  The thought of having to be available every night of the week.  There is the potential that I may have to cover a two county area (the two furthest points from one county to the other is almost 2 hours apart).  But I don’t think I can turn this down if it is offered to me.  I would be making about 2 1/2 times the money I am making now which means we can pay off these medical bills in a few months rather than a few years.  Our van can get paid off much quicker.  And then we can really tackle the mortgage and best of all have money to put in savings and to put towards our retirement fund.  Anyway.  Enough about that.
  • I was reading on Teri’s blog about her resolutions.  I have a few in mind for myself that I intend to keep next year.  Don’t we always say that though?  I’ll have to look back and see if I kept my resolutions from last year!

Layla is stirring around, and my eyes are very very heavy.  So it’s adios for tonight.

June 2020