Of sickness.

Of death.

Of evilness.

Tired of this awful, evil world.  This world where babies die.  Where people suffer with disease and sickness.  Where friends are murdered.

Praying that Jesus returns soon.

Please pray for my friend Virginia’s family and friends.  She was one of our first friends when we moved to Harrisonburg.  We spent a lot of time with her and her (then) husband.  Going out to eat (we even spent one of our anniversaries with them at IHOP!), sitting around talking (and burning incense!), counseling them through tough times.  Even traveling to NC together to attend a friend’s funeral.  As some friendships do, we drifted apart for several years.

Virginia and I had a good talk recently (in February) about faith and God and getting back on track.  She talked about how she still had faith.  How she often wondered if she had made the right decision in getting a divorce.  And about how she was trying to get “back on track” with God and wanted to get back to church.  About how she still believed in God.  I told her about our house church and how we would love to have her join us again.  About how we really missed seeing her.

I had really good intentions of calling her and getting together before we moved.  And although I talked to her frequently (she was a nurse at my doctor’s office and I called them at least once a week about one of my patients) I never asked her to get together.  I never took the time to spend time with her before we moved.

On Monday night, her estranged boyfriend murdered her outside her home in front of her neighbors–including three children.  He shot her three times.  She had told her neighbor that she was scared.  That she was afraid that he was going to kill her.  And she stayed there anyway.

What if I had made that call before I moved?  What if I had reconnected her with our church?  What if she had someone to talk to about her fears?  Somewhere safe to go.  She had recently relocated to Grottoes–about 5 minutes from where we used to live.  We were even in town on Monday morning before it happened.

I know that I can’t blame myself but I am really disappointed in myself that I didn’t act on my good intentions.  That I didn’t take the time to sit down and talk with and encourage a friend who obviously was reaching out to me.

God knew Virginia’s heart.  She was a baptized believer in Jesus.  I know her heart was in the right place and she was a good, honest person.  She had a sweet, gentle spirit.  I pray that I will see her in Heaven again one day.

Jesus, please come back soon.  There are mamas who want to hold their babies (some for the first time), there are people suffering who want to be well and there are friends missing friends.  Please come soon.  We long for the day when there will be no suffering, no pain, no death, when you will WIPE AWAY OUR TEARS.  Come soon.

11 Responses to “Tired”

  1. 1 Aaron September 9, 2009 at 10:50 pm

    Ditto, babe.

    I’m downstairs crying right now as I type this.

  2. 2 Adrienne September 9, 2009 at 11:04 pm

    Thank you for all the times you were Jesus to Virginia.
    Thank you for sorrowing with Jesus at this tragic loss tonight.

    I’m praying for the lives you will touch next week because you are sensitive to the Holy Spirit moving in you in the present, not mired in guilt about the past.

    Peace in your brokenness.

    • 3 lsaufley September 10, 2009 at 7:49 am

      Thank you Adrienne. I needed to hear that. I am praying for courage to speak to friends about Jesus, for constant reminders about what is most important in life and for Jesus to break me, make me, and mold me into the person He desires me to be. Events like this really help one to focus on the bigger picture and to see what is important in life.

  3. 4 Heather and Reber September 10, 2009 at 7:05 pm

    Holy crap I didn’t realize that was her since her last name was different. She was a very sweet lady and helped me when I was having a hard time soon after we started going to Discovery. That hurts my heart.

    • 5 lsaufley September 10, 2009 at 7:56 pm

      Heather–I totally meant to e-mail you and let you know. I figured you may not recognize her maiden name. Isn’t it horrible? I wish we could get in touch with Adam and see how he is doing. He’s one of my Facebook friends but he hasn’t been on it in awhile.

      • 6 Heather and Reber September 11, 2009 at 6:52 pm

        I was thinking the same thing…does he still live around here?

      • 7 lsaufley September 13, 2009 at 1:12 pm

        He lives in Pennsylvania. Finally got his life straightened out and has a good job. I’ve sent him messages on Facebook but haven’t gotten a response.

  4. 8 Gina September 11, 2009 at 12:49 pm

    I’m so sorry Laura.

  5. 9 The Baker Family September 15, 2009 at 12:58 pm

    Laura, I am so sorry that you are going through this. Please don’t beat yourself up too much! I have a friend who was in the same kind of situation and I realized I could beg, warn, cry, threaten, etc…and people are gonna choose what they choose…I did find out that my friend’s younger sister was one of the witnesses, that really breaks my heart, as this young girl has been so far from God for so long…I pray that somehow He will turn things around and bring others closer to Himself. Yes, we need to obey that still small voice when He nudges us…But none of us can save anyone…I pray that You will see Him with you as He ministers to your heart.

  6. 10 Misty October 10, 2009 at 8:44 pm

    Finally caught up on reading your blog. So sorry to learn about your friend Virginia. 😦 I know it’s almost a month after the fact, but if I can help let me know.
    Love u guys!
    Misty & Brooks

  1. 1 Not Again… « The Road Less Traveled Trackback on September 9, 2009 at 10:49 pm

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